Wrap Up: Latinx Book Bingo & Prideathon

Exactly a month ago, I posted Latinx Book Bingo- Prideathon basically I planned to read as much queer &/or latinx books as I could. Of the planned books I read:


Tash Hearts Tolstoy was my first read that had outed ace rep, and I loved it. I’ve (still) yet to read Anna Karenina, Tash’s favorite book that was her life. I love books, I have reoccurring rereads, I fantasize about meeting authors, I have a bloody book blog. Yet I’ve yet to devote as much love as Tash gives Anna Karenina. She adapts AK into a modern webseries that gets the attention of major web superstars.
And her queerness? It’s a little awkward sometimes, like why is she so open about her asexuality? But she has close friends and guys that are into her, so I guess she can’t just not acknowledge sex.


History Is All You Left Me. I preferred They Both Die At The End, since about prepping for death, and HIAYLM is about getting over a death and has sex. Not explicit sex, but constant unnecessary sex. Like, one instance was built up to, and the others were guilt sex.
I love Silvera’s tone of death. It’s what I love about him, it what makes him my gay soulmate. I LOVE HIM OK? I love confronting death, experiencing it, and not shying away.
Undead Girl Gang
I did not like this book. Too clunky, and disappointed how great the book could’ve been. It has a great premise, Mila necromances her dead best friend and enemies. They find out who killed them. The writing trips on its feet.
That’s everything I read from the list. I also read…

It was unsatisfying. I binged in less than 24 hours, so the writing and plot was smooth, but Becky’s specialty is wondering, suspense, and happy fulfillment. Adam’s specialty is DEATH and moodiness. They did not work. They reflected a normal relationship, evolved from an amazing meeting. They made it awkward and normal. Like, COULD SOMEONE PLEASE DIE?
Also not on the list was Ivy Aberdeen’s Letter To The World. I read it during a bad time and wasn’t able to be present for the lot of it, but it was cute! Ivy’s a middle school girl trying ask if her crush is gay while dealing with her maybe homophobic older sister. Also, there’s a natural disaster and their house is totally destroyed. It’s the MG book that was missing back when I was browsing the Children’s Room.
I’m currently reading My Life As A Goddess. It’s a memoir by Guy Braum, a friend of Mindy Kaling. I’ve never heard of him before, but aside from the religious blasphemy of calling himself a goddess, he seems pretty funny.
So I only read 5 books when my goal was 11. I went through a tough time recently, went homeless and can’t really carry around a lot of books, and spend more of my time looking for food. Plus, I read books that don’t fall in the latinx/ pride spectrum, such as Dear Nobody, the true diary of Mary Rose. I’m also reading Vicious, written by the gay VE, and stars the ace Victor Vale, but it’s a reread.
I’m pretty happy with this challenge. I can look forward to reading those other books at a better time instead of binging on a conform diet. I wish I’d read more Latinx, but I also wish I chose something better than Undead Girl Gang.
What do you like about this reading challenge? What do you recommend for it?


Depressive Reading

I’ve been reading. Good books, too. I finished Ivy Aberdeen in a day yesterday. A great gay book. I haven’t read MG in a while, so I was pleased that I didn’t get bored. I stopped reading Boxcar children and Animorphs ages ago, because although I loved them, the language style was too dull for me.

I finally finished reading Undead Girl Gang. Not in a day, it dragged on to two weeks. The story and concepts were fascinating, but there were some minor disturbances in the writing that made it easy to put down. The writing style was a little clunky.

In the midst of the Undead sludge, I quickly read History Is All You Left Me. I love Adam Silvera. I loved the book, all stars, but.

I’m so depressed lately, I can’t bring myself to fully enjoy a book. I know my heart should’ve been affected by History IAYLM, but I couldn’t be present enough to put my heart in there. 

I’ve mentioned this already. I’ve recently become homeless. I’ve been staying at a shelter the past four nights. I feel helpless and unknowing. Normally not knowing the future is an adventure. But knowing absolutely nothing, like this, is just scary.

Normally I’m able to put myself in the books, feel the feels, think of how I’d interact with the character. But this is just killing time, reading because the computers are timed out, because I’m not hungry or don’t have food.

And it’s not just depression because things are crap and I can’t do anything at the moment. It’s depression because my brain doesn’t have a healthy level of serotonin. I have a mental illness that I suspect is PTSD, but I don’t have a therapist. I did when I was a kid, but I had to hide how bad is always was because she kept talking to my mum, who always made it about her. So my kid therapist disqualified me from therapy when I graduated high school. 

I know I shouldn’t say anything else, but I’m sick of this. I’m sick of hiding. I don’t even know where my mum is right now, because there’s safe shelters for college aged folk, but seniors get kicked out onto the streets, so she went to a safer neighborhood.


I was assaulted when I was 17 years old. It was the summer before senior year. I was walking my dog, when an old man started talking to him. My dog didn’t show his usual amount of affection, which I thought was off, but he didn’t growl or anything. When I say old, I mean ancient. Barely-talk old. I thought he was harmless until he grabbed me with a ridiculous amount of strength. He embraced me so hard I couldn’t breathe. He. Was. Strong. 

I pushed away him with my free arm, the one that wasn’t holding my dog’s leash. I pushed, and pushed. He let go, squeezed my boob, and was down the street before I could catch my breath.

I didn’t know what to do. The last TIME that came out detailed #MeToo women coming out against their bosses. If this had to happen to me, I wish it was a boss. I wish it was someone I knew. I wish it didn’t happen at all, but since it did, I wish I had a name and location I could’ve given to the police. 

But I didn’t. There wasn’t anything to be done about it, so I stayed silent.

My time is up. I don’t usually get this dark or personal, but I needed to vent.

Master King Has Mental Style/ I Heart Characters Catch-Up!

I Heart Characters! is a weekly meme hosted by (me!) Dani @ Perspective of a Writer to showcase our book blogger love for characters! Each week she’ll supply a topic and you’ll supply the character. Post on whatever day suits you, about characters from whatever media you love (books, movies, K-dramas, television, manga, anime, webtoons, whatever!) and link up on Thursday so YOU and others can blog hop and share the character love. ♡

Who’s a good boy?

Stephen King is a bit too hyped for me. Yeah, his books are good, the characters well developed, and the plots fascinating, but what’s the big deal?
I’m still conflicted by my choice. IT is my favourite King book, The Shining my favourite King movie, with Pet Sematary a close second. But I don’t like them for their characters. I love ITs’ artful time transitions, which the movie totally failed at. I love all the creepy, crazy ideas in The Shining, I mean, bloody elevator, homicidal writer, ghost girls, frozen maze, LoveLoveLove. I love the atmosphere and location of Pet Sematary. But the characters, just bleh.
But I feel sorry for Cujo. I was terrified as the next when he was pawing on top of the car, but it wasn’t him. It was zombie rabies. It was sickness. There was just a scared little boy that loved his family, with his personality erased by a rabbit bite.
It wasn’t him. He was taken over.
Mental Case

Lucy in the head with the Sammy

Sam and I went mad around the same time, if you don’t consider the time span in between the original release and my netflix binge last year. It was hard, especially the episode when he’s led into a storehouse by Lucy and starts shooting into air. I may not need Lucifer in me to be crazy, but I recognize in Sam Winchester a kindred soul. A genius overpowered by work. The quiet one that does more than he gets screentime for.
Don’t get me wrong, Cass and Dean are my favorites. But I wish it could be less about Dean and more about the Winchester family and hunters in general.


When I first saw Descendants 2 a week ago, I immediately wanted everything Evie. I could do with less girlyness, but she makes it work. And blue. So much blue. I didn’t know I could be this wanting of a fictional characters wardrobe before. I mean,


Too Tired To Read

V.E. Schwab is going to sign copies of Vengeful at Books Inc Berkeley in a few hours. I’m a BART ride away, but I won’t be going. My go-to friend with a driver’s licence is working tonight. I’m too tired to enjoy the experience. And though I remember loving Vicious, I don’t remember much of Vicious itself, except for the character’s general personalities. 

  I don’t remember what Victor and Eli were fighting about. Was it the creation of a new species? Bringing the dead back? Whose name would go on top of their college thesis? I don’t care enough to pick up the book and read it. Cause. I’m. Tired. 

I always questioned why my mum would never read. She always said she’s too tired. I didn’t understand. Reading is the most relaxing thing in the world. It’s more stimulating yet calming than television. But it takes more effort and focus than telly. Words on a page can go through your eyes, your brain, and not register. Television is just there, requiring no  brainpower from the viewer. Which is really sad, considering how much effort the writers, the directors, the producers, the actors, the boom guy and who knows what others put into making an enjoyable product.

 Maybe it’s because I’ve been waking up every weekday at 7 to catch up on Supernatural reruns. Maybe it’s my depression. Maybe it’s the stress of not having a permanent home. Maybe it’s because I miss my roommate. Maybe it’s just a slump. I am tired. And whatever exciting thing I would normally be excited about has to be forgotten. I haven’t the energy for excitement. 



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Latinx Book Bingo- Prideathon



I’m a few days late to @LatinxBookBingo  but fortunatly it runs for a month, from Sept. 15 to Oct. 15. @prideathon runs for a week, from Sept. 23-29. Here are some of the books I’ll be reading:

Tash Hearts TolstoyAsexual I’m already reading this, and I Love it!!! Tash directs a web series based off Anna Karenina. It’s the first book I’ve read that openly describes asexuality, which is part of the reason I took so long to figure out my own asexuality. I don’t even mind that it’s not #ownvoice because I Love This. Although it’s kind of off that Tash doesn’t know when she has a crush/squish. She says she heteroromantic, but she comes off both aro and ace.

Undead Girl Gang- #ownvoice Mexican-American I’ve seen this book pop up over and over and I’ve got to read it soon! Two girls die in a suspected suicide pact and the Wiccan MC brings them back to life to find out what really happened.

When The Moon Was Ours- Trans Um, read the Goodreadscause its kind of detailed. But basically, magic, someone grows out of someone’s skin, someone was born out of water. The cover is really pretty.

IMG_20180917_121405.jpgLets’ Talk About LoveBiromantic Asexual  Alice works at a library, where she’s starting to fall in love with a coworker. But after a breakup when her girlfriend couldn’t accept her asexuality, she’s not sure how to confess.

Queens Of Geek– f/f bi- three fangirls. One convention.

Juliet Takes A Breath- Puerto Rican lesbian When her outing doesn’t go well with her family, Juliet signs up for a summer interning with one of her favorite authors

Noteworthybi Jordan disguises herself as a boy to sing in an elite cappella. 

Love In The Time Of Cholera- Columbian An unrequited love attends a funeral.

The Savage Detectives- Latin American After a search for a missing poet goes wrong, the duo travel for twenty years.

Labyrinth Lost- Bi, Latina Alex does not want to be a bruja. She will pay the price for it.

History Is All You Left Me- m/m, Latino I am jonesing for another Adam Silvera after They Both Die At The End. Griffin believes he will see Theo again, but he gets a new boyfriend and dies, sending Griffin into a downward spiral.

Are you participating in either of these challenges? What books do you recommend for them?

Ugo Friedkin- Ara- Gimlee/ I Heart Characters Gender Switch

 Heart Characters! is a weekly meme hosted by Dani @ Perspective of a Writer to showcase our book blogger love for characters! Each week she’ll supply a topic and you’ll supply the character. Post on whatever day suits you, about characters from whatever media you love (books, movies, K-dramas, television, manga, anime, webtoons, whatever!) and link up on Thursday so YOU and others can blog hop and share the character love. ♡



Hugo Friedkin is the idiot in Dirk Gently. Seriously, google “Idiot in Dirk Gently” and he’ll be on top. Dirk Gently can be found on DVD, Hulu and Netflix. If you haven’t seen it yet, close this blog and watch it. It has everything; Mystery, fantasy, sci-fi, diversity, romance, humour, supernatural… really, just watch it And then sign the petition

But while writing this, I realized that the beauty of Hugo is that he isn’t a stereotypical dumb blonde. He’s a combo of a stereotypical dumb guy, and a stereotypical dumb blonde, and that somehow makes him special. If he were a girl, it would upset the balance. But it would be nice to see a girl of below average intelligence played right, that happened to be blonde. Not perpetuating the dumb blonde stereotype, but portraying someone in that strata as a person, and not just comic relief. Ugo or Huguette Friedin could do that. But it’s nice to see a dumb blonde guy.


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It’s commonly known that LOTR needs more girls. Usually Merry or Legolas, from what I’ve seen. And they could totally be girls, too! But my top two choices for girldom are Aragorn and Gimli. Yeah, I know Aragorn is hot. Stubble, brow, and all that. But Ara could totally be gay. A gay warrior female in the most masculine fantasy epic ever. Ara killing orc, leading battles, becoming queen! I need this adaptation now. 

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Ok, I have no idea what the female version of Gimli is, and neither does google, so I’m going with Gimlee. She’d almost certainly look exactly the same, considering that dwarf women have beards. she’d have the snark, the toughness, yet weakness when it comes to long distances. She’d hate the pointy-eared elf like sane people, but eventually love Legolas like an insane person. If you like Legolas, fine by me, but why? He’s so dull.

Who do you want to gender switch? Why do people like Legolas? How much do you need a 3rd season of Dirk Gently?