Dean Schrödinger


I haven’t met him, at least not as the Dean. Could be a her, but Schrödinger’s always portrayed as a guy.

He’s thinking whether or not to kill me. Whether or not to keep me sane. Maybe he’s already decided, but he’s not allowed to say until later. Maybe i’m already dead.

I’m in a box. I’m not in a box. I’m in a jawlike box with two doors where the lips would be. I entered through one alive and wait to exit alive or dead- unless Schrödinger himself dies, leaving no record of my fate.

The mouth is full of me and it sickens me. I don’t like being eaten, but not eaten. It’s a double locked mouth, with the only key in Schrödingers’ pocket.

 My key is lost amongst tens of thousands of other keys. Some are bigger. Some are more colorful. Some of them will look ghastly to the Dean, some of them beautiful. The ghastly ones he throws to his underlings, who quickly unlock exits marked DEAD and kill their respective cats.  The beautiful ones he unlocks himself. For the beautiful ones he unlocks ALIVE.

 I’ve been told that I might appear a bit ghastly to the Dean. His or her identity remains unknown, so there’s no way to tell until one of the doors are unlocked.

 As for my ghastly appearance, I’d enjoy the death of one or two, oh, wait, fourteen people. That makes me seem a little homicidal at first. And last, if you don’t stick around.

 But I so want to live. I can’t measure myself precisely, but I enlarged myself to be as big as possible without destroying myself. I still fall on the smaller side due to certain restrictions, but I didn’t stay as small as I was at my making.

 The small, ghastly me wants to live so that I can give those without a Schrödinger’s chance a way to thrive. So that they can live without fear of this society. I want to live because I desperately desire to rise the voiceless above us.

  If you see Dean Schrödinger, please tell him to let me live.


 I wrote this while waiting for college acceptance/rejection letters. I didn’t get into my original first choice, but as I became more accepting of other colleges, I realised I got into the best fit. It’s unexpected and far away, providing experiences I wasn’t aware of, and that’s what makes one a great writer; unexpected experiences. 

p.s, Benedict Cumberbatch 

Sherlock vs. The Book

My computer seems to be mad at me, so I have to keep this short.

I am reading The Complete Sherlock Holmes, vol.1. I started it after I saw seasons one and two of Sherlock (Cumberbatch version).

My computer doesn’t know who Benedict Cumberbatch is. No wonder we don’t get along.

There’s the obvious time difference, as the book is set in the 1800s and the series starting in 2010, but there is quite a difference in the stories. In the series, Moriarty is somehow involved in everything, but in all of Study in Scarlet there is no mention of the great Moriarty. I have yet to read more, but it seems as if there will be a more realistic amount of Moriarty’s involvement in the books.

The writing is annoying at times, as Watson/Doyle repeats himself when describing something. (“simous and ape-like” just choose one already, and old-fashioned, obviously, but not to Shakespearean language. It is limited, more so than the series because book Watson does not follow Sherlock everywhere, but waits for Sherlock’s account. It is not as humorous, and I so love the series better.


The Middlesteins

May the 4th be with you.


 In book news, I finished The Middlesteins, not a book I would normally read, but as a writer I have to have a varied diet. The Middlesteins are a family that revolves around the extreme eating habits of Eddie, her health and her divorce. But mostly her eating. She eats. Everything falls apart because of it. Her health, obviously, but also her marriage cause Middlestein Sr. can’t bring himself to stick around. He is then ostracized from the family, but is still chronicled by the omniscient narrator, who jumps from person to person, and once, a group. I found it interesting enough to give it 4/5 stars but not interesting enough to tempt me to read more of it’s genre.

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In other news, I just finished the first season of Sherlock for the first time and might die before I get the second.

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Science in Books

 I finished  Vicious recently, an X-men inspired novel where the protagonists kill themselves to gain powers. It doesn’t come off as very scientific, but they explained it using scientific knowledge. Adrenaline heightens the body’s senses, and depending on the death, can be elevated to significant levels. Thus, they kill themselves when their adrenaline is high; the adrenaline pushes them through death and back into life. With powers.

 I am currently reading The Hidden Life of Trees, a nonfiction book describing communication and cooperation amongst trees. It is written to be easily understood, and if you like nature, is fascinating. Tree roots orient their tips in the direction of sound at 220 hertz, way below human hearing levels. They also scream at that frequency when dehydrated!

One is a novel, another is nonfiction. Yet I read one after the other because I find the science intriguing. Science fiction often predicts what we will be able to sense and do in the future, just think of cellphones in Star Trek. But do we search for ways to mimic sci-fi, vice versa, or are they interdependent?  I believe that they are interdependent because creation is founded by the creator’s imagination, and the creator’s imagination is moved by what has come before.

What are some sci-fi or nonfiction science you have read recently? I would live to explore this some more.

In other news, I recently went to Redwood National and Yosemite in California. I’m thinking of starting a photo blog of what I saw there. I’m thinking of naming it NatureScreams or TanyaSights. Name Ideas?

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On The Path

On A Writer’s Path, they do Book Quote Corners, one of which struck me today.

“There’s no such thing as the life you’re supposed to have.”


All Our Wrong Todays, written by Elan Mastai

This struck me because I want to be an Author. I’m currently on the path to be an environmental lawyer. It would truly benefit the environment, but it’s not perfect for me, as I have led others to believe. I want to explore. This quote embodies that.

What does it mean to you?